Wherein is shown how the desires torment the soul. This is
proved likewise by comparison and quotations.
THE second kind of positive evil which the desires cause the
soul is in their tormenting and afflicting of it, after the manner
of one who is in torment through being bound with cords from which
he has no relief until he be freed. And of these David says: Funes
peccatorum circumplexi sunt me.[131] The cords of my sins, which are
my desires, have constrained me round about. And, even as one that
lies naked upon thorns and briars is tormented and afflicted, even
so is the soul tormented and afflicted when it rests upon its
desires. For they take hold upon it and distress it and cause it
pain, even as do thorns. Of these David says likewise:
Circumdederunt me sicut apes: et exarserunt sicut ignis in
spinis.[132] Which signifies: They compassed me about like bees,
wounding me with their stings, and they were enkindled against me,
like fire among thorns; for in the desires, which are the thorns,
increases the fire of anguish and torment. And even as the
husbandman, coveting the harvest for which he hopes, afflicts and
torments the ox in the plough, even so does concupiscence afflict
a soul that is subject to its desire to attain that for which it
longs. This can be clearly seen in that desire which Dalila had to
know whence Samson derived his strength that was so great, for the
Scripture says that it fatigued and tormented her so much that it
caused her to swoon, almost to the point of death, and she said:
Defecit anima ejus, et ad mortem usque lassata est.[133]
2. The more intense is the desire, the greater is the torment
which it causes the soul. So that the torment increases with the
desire; and the greater are the desires which possess the soul,
the greater are its torments; for in such a soul is fulfilled,
even in this life, that which is said in the Apocalypse concerning
Babylon, in these words: Quantum glorificavit se, et in deliciis
fuit, tantum date illi tormentum, et luctum.[134] That is: As much
as she has wished to exalt and fulfil her desires, so much give ye
to her torment and anguish. And even as one that falls into the
hands of his enemies is tormented and afflicted, even so is the
soul tormented and afflicted that is led away by its desires. Of
this there is a figure in the Book of the Judges, wherein it may
be read that that strong man, Samson, who at one time was strong
and free and a judge of Israel, fell into the power of his
enemies, and they took his strength from him, and put out his
eyes, and bound him in a mill, to grind corn,[135] wherein they
tormented and afflicted him greatly;[136] and thus it happens to the
soul in which these its enemies, the desires, live and rule; for
the first thing that they do is to weaken the soul and blind it,
as we shall say below; and then they afflict and torment it,
binding it to the mill of concupiscence; and the bonds with which
it is bound are its own desires.
3. Wherefore God, having compassion on these that with such
great labour, and at such cost to themselves, go about
endeavouring to satisfy the hunger and thirst of their desire in
the creatures, says to them through Isaias: Omnes sitientes,
venite ad aquas; et qui non habetis argentum, properate, emite, el
comedite: venite, emite absque argento vinum et lac. Quare
appenditis argentum non in panibus, et laborem vestrum non in
saturitate?[137] As though He were to say: All ye that have thirst
of desire, come to the waters, and all ye that have no silver of
your own will and desires, make haste; buy from Me and eat; come
and buy from Me wine and milk (that is, spiritual sweetness and
peace) without the silver of your own will, and without giving Me
any labour in exchange for it, as ye give for your desires.
Wherefore do ye give the silver of your will for that which is not
bread -- namely, that of the Divine Spirit -- and set the labour
of your desires upon that which cannot satisfy you? Come,
hearkening to Me, and ye shall eat the good that ye desire and
your soul shall delight itself in fatness.
4. This attaining to fatness is a going forth from all
pleasures of the creatures; for the creatures torment, but the
Spirit of God refreshes. And thus He calls us through Saint
Matthew, saying: Venite ad me omnes, qui laboratis et onerati
estis, et ego reficiam vos, et invenietis requiem animabus
vestris.[138] As though He were to say: All ye that go about
tormented, afflicted and burdened with the burden of your cares
and desires, go forth from them, come to Me, and I will refresh
you and ye shall find for your souls the rest which your desires
take from you, wherefore they are a heavy burden, for David says
of them: Sicut onus grave gravatoe sunt super me.[139]
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