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Book VI
OF THE EXERCISES OF HOLY LOVE IN PRAYER.
CHAPTER VII. OF THE LOVING RECOLLECTION OF THE SOUL IN CONTEMPLATION.
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I speak not here, Theotimus, of the recollection by which such as are about
to pray, place themselves in God's presence, entering into themselves, and
as one would say bringing their soul into their hearts, there to speak with
God; for this recollection is made by love's command, which, provoking us to
prayer, moves us to take this means of doing it well, so that we ourselves
make this withdrawing of our spirit. But the recollection of which I mean to
speak is not made by love's command but by love itself, that is, we do not
make it by free choice, for it is not in our power to have it when we
please, and does not depend on our care, but God at his pleasure works it in
us by his most holy grace. The Blessed Mother (S.) Teresa of Jesus says: "He
who has written that the prayer of recollection is made as when a hedgehog
or tortoise draws itself within itself, said well, saying that these beasts
draw themselves in when they please, whereas recollection is not in our
will, but comes to us only when it pleases God to do us this grace."
Now it comes thus. Nothing is so natural to good as to draw and unite unto
itself such things as are sensible of it; as our souls do, which continually
draw towards them and give themselves to their treasure, that is, what they
love. It happens then sometimes that our Lord imperceptibly infuses into the
depths of our hearts a certain agreeable sweetness, which testifies his
presence, and then the powers, yea the very exterior senses of the soul, by
a certain secret contentment, turn in towards that most interior part where
is the most amiable and dearest spouse. For as a new swarm of bees when it
would take flight and change country, is recalled by a sound softly made on
metal basins, by the smell of honied wine, or by the scent of some
odoriferous herbs, being stayed by the attraction of these agreeable things,
and entering into the hive prepared for it:—so our Saviour,—pronouncing some
secret word of his love, or pouring out the odour of the wine of his
dilection, more delicious than honey, or letting stream the perfumes of his
garments, that is, feelings of his heavenly consolations in our hearts, and
thereby making them perceive his most welcome presence,—draws unto him all
the faculties of our soul, which gather about him and stay themselves in him
as in their most desired object. And as he who should cast a piece of
loadstone amongst a number of needles would instantly see them turn all
their points towards their well-beloved adamant, and join themselves to it,
so when our Saviour makes his most delicious presence to be felt in the
midst of our hearts, all our faculties turn their points in that direction,
to be united to this incomparable sweetness.
O God! says then the soul in imitation of S. Augustine, whither was I
wandering to seek thee! O most infinite beauty! I sought thee without, and
thou wast in the midst of my heart. All Magdalen's affections, and all her
thoughts, were scattered about the sepulchre of her Saviour, whom she went
seeking hither and thither, and though she had found him, and he spoke to
her, yet leaves she them dispersed, because she does not perceive his
presence; but as soon as he had called her by her name, see how she gathers
herself together and entirely attaches herself to his feet: one only word
puts her into recollection.
Propose to yourself, Theotimus, the most holy Virgin, our Lady, when she had
conceived the Son of God, her only love. The soul of that well-beloved
mother did wholly collect itself about that well-beloved child, and because
this heavenly dear one was harboured in her sacred womb, all the faculties
of her soul gathered themselves within her, as holy bees into their hive,
wherein their honey is; and by how much the divine greatness was, so to
speak, straitened and contracted within her virginal womb, by so much her
soul did more increase and magnify the praises of that infinite
loving-kindness, and her spirit within her body leapt with joy (as S. John
in his mother's womb) in presence of her God, whom she felt. She launched
not her affections out of herself, since her treasure, her loves and her
delights were in the midst of her sacred womb. Now the same contentment may
be practised by imitation, among those who, having communicated, feel by the
certainty of faith that which, not flesh and blood, but the Heavenly Father
has revealed, that their Saviour is body and soul present, with a most real
presence, to their body and to their soul, by this most adorable sacrament.
For as the pearl-mother, having received the drops of the fresh dew of the
morning, closes up, not only to keep them pure from all possible mixture
with the water of the sea, but also for the pleasure she feels in relishing
the agreeable freshness of this heaven-sent germ:—so does it happen to many
holy and devout of the faithful, that having received the Divine Sacrament
which contains the dew of all heavenly benedictions, their heart closes over
It, and all their faculties collect themselves together, not only to adore
this sovereign King, but for the spiritual consolation and refreshment,
beyond belief, which they receive in feeling by faith this divine germ of
immortality within them. Where you will carefully note, Theotimus, that to
say all in a word this recollection is wholly made by love, which perceiving
the presence of the well-beloved by the attractions he spreads in the midst
of the heart, gathers and carries all the soul towards it, by a most
agreeable inclination, a most sweet turning, and a delicious bending of all
the faculties towards this well-beloved, who attracts them unto him by the
force of his sweetness, with which he ties and draws hearts, as bodies are
drawn by material ropes and bands.
But this sweet recollection of our soul in itself is not only made by the
sentiment of God's presence in the midst of our heart, but also by any means
which puts us in this sacred presence. It happens sometimes that all our
interior powers close and withdraw themselves into themselves by the extreme
reverence and sweet fear which seizes upon us in the consideration of his
sovereign Majesty who is present with us and beholds us; just as, however
distracted we may be, if the Pope or some great prince should appear we
return to ourselves, and bring back our thoughts upon ourselves, to keep
ourselves in good behaviour and respect. The blue lily, otherwise called the
flag, is said to draw its flowers together at the sight of the sun, because
they close and unite while the sun shines, but in its absence they spread
out and keep open all the night. The like happens in this kind of
recollection which we speak of; for at the simple presence of God, or the
simple feeling that he sees us, either from heaven or from any other place
outside us (even if we are not remembering the other sort of presence by
which he is in us), our powers and faculties assemble and gather together
within us, out of respect to his divine Majesty, which love makes us fear
with a fear of honour and respect.
Indeed I know a soul who, as soon as she heard mention of some mystery or
sentence which put her a little more expressly in mind of the presence of
God than usual, whether in confession or private conference, would so deeply
enter into herself that she could hardly recover herself to speak and make
answer, so that outwardly she remained as one deprived of life, and with all
her senses benumbed, till her spouse permitted her to quit that state: which
was sometimes pretty soon, and other times more slowly.
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