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On Loving God St. Bernard of Clairvaux
Chapter X. Of the fourth degree of love: wherein man does not even love self save for God's sake
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How blessed is he who reaches the fourth degree of love, wherein one
loves himself only in God! Thy righteousness standeth like the strong
mountains, O God. Such love as this is God's hill, in the which it
pleaseth Him to dwell. Who shall ascend into the hill of the Lord?' O
that I had wings like a dove; for then would I flee away and be at
rest.' At Salem is His tabernacle; and His dwelling in Sion.' Woe is
me, that I am constrained to dwell with Mesech! ' (Ps. 24.3; 55.6;
76.2; 120.5). When shall this flesh and blood, this earthen vessel
which is my soul's tabernacle, attain thereto? When shall my soul, rapt
with divine love and altogether self-forgetting, yea, become like a
broken vessel, yearn wholly for God, and, joined unto the Lord, be one
spirit with Him? When shall she exclaim, My flesh and my heart faileth;
but God is the strength of my heart and my portion for ever' (Ps.
73.26). I would count him blessed and holy to whom such rapture has
been vouchsafed in this mortal life, for even an instant to lose
thyself, as if thou wert emptied and lost and swallowed up in God, is
no human love; it is celestial. But if sometimes a poor mortal feels
that heavenly joy for a rapturous moment, then this wretched life
envies his happiness, the malice of daily trifles disturbs him, this
body of death weighs him down, the needs of the flesh are imperative,
the weakness of corruption fails him, and above all brotherly love
calls him back to duty. Alas! that voice summons him to re-enter his
own round of existence; and he must ever cry out lamentably, O Lord, I
am oppressed: undertake for me' (Isa. 38.14); and again, O wretched man
that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death?' (Rom.
7.24).
Seeing that the Scripture saith, God has made all for His own glory
(Isa. 43.7), surely His creatures ought to conform themselves, as much
as they can, to His will. In Him should all our affections center, so
that in all things we should seek only to do His will, not to please
ourselves. And real happiness will come, not in gratifying our desires
or in gaining transient pleasures, but in accomplishing God's will for
us: even as we pray every day: Thy will be done in earth as it is in
heaven' (Matt. 6.10). O chaste and holy love! O sweet and gracious
affection! O pure and cleansed purpose, thoroughly washed and purged
from any admixture of selfishness, and sweetened by contact with the
divine will! To reach this state is to become godlike. As a drop of
water poured into wine loses itself, and takes the color and savor of
wine; or as a bar of iron, heated red-hot, becomes like fire itself,
forgetting its own nature; or as the air, radiant with sun-beams, seems
not so much to be illuminated as to be light itself; so in the saints
all human affections melt away by some unspeakable transmutation into
the will of God. For how could God be all in all, if anything merely
human remained in man? The substance will endure, but in another
beauty, a higher power, a greater glory. When will that be? Who will
see, who possess it? When shall I come to appear before the presence of
God?' (Ps. 42.2). My heart hath talked of Thee, Seek ye My face: Thy
face, Lord, will I seek' (Ps. 27.8). Lord, thinkest Thou that I, even I
shall see Thy holy temple?
In this life, I think, we cannot fully and perfectly obey that precept,
Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy
soul, and with all thy strength, and with all thy mind' (Luke 10.27).
For here the heart must take thought for the body; and the soul must
energize the flesh; and the strength must guard itself from impairment.
And by God's favor, must seek to increase. It is therefore impossible
to offer up all our being to God, to yearn altogether for His face, so
long as we must accommodate our purposes and aspirations to these
fragile, sickly bodies of ours. Wherefore the soul may hope to possess
the fourth degree of love, or rather to be possessed by it, only when
it has been clothed upon with that spiritual and immortal body, which
will be perfect, peaceful, lovely, and in everything wholly subjected
to the spirit. And to this degree no human effort can attain: it is in
God's power to give it to whom He wills. Then the soul will easily
reach that highest stage, because no lusts of the flesh will retard its
eager entrance into the joy of its Lord, and no troubles will disturb
its peace. May we not think that the holy martyrs enjoyed this grace,
in some degree at least, before they laid down their victorious bodies?
Surely that was immeasurable strength of love which enraptured their
souls, enabling them to laugh at fleshly torments and to yield their
lives gladly. But even though the frightful pain could not destroy
their peace of mind, it must have impaired somewhat its perfection.
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